-I still remember when I saw you with that killer black outfit and the big sunglasses coming down the stairs the first time, I can’t forget your shaking hands and the shy smile.
I still remember almost every encounter we have with so much detail, but now, now my memory starts to fading, a big part of me still wants to remember, but the reason needs to forget, to make me be again what I really am.
I never care of any of my prays, any of them what so ever, till now, till you, and I can’t let that affect me, not now or never, but there’s something about you…something that makes me hold and wait, that makes me want to be there and watch how my kingdom burns to ashes with my consent, there’s something in you, something I can’t explain, a feeling between desire and affection that makes me be in this way, I need to get rid of your spell now when I can, now when it’s to much easier struggle with it, but I can’t kill all the memories even if I want it, I just can’t, It’s not faire, not for me, not for us.
But you have me fighting with the ghost who still lives in you, that big shadow, that rotten memory, that careless and selfish resident who takes all what you have to offer, and left nothing for no one, who doesn’t let you feel again, what sort of power he got in you, to contain all what you are in his fist?, what kind of right he think he have on you to make you worship him and let you fall and fall for him?, I wont waste a tear, even a broken bone for his will, not for him and his selfish will, I’ll do it for you if you ask me, but I know that’s never gonna happen, you aren’t ready yet, and there’s nothing I can do, maybe when you wake up from your deeply nightmare, and leave the shadows who surround you, maybe when you let to this beaten, broken and scarred beast take care of you, maybe when you let me splatter color on your gray…maybe.
Now, I’m gonna reinvent myself, evolve if you want, I’m gonna miss our battles, our “sincere” and armless battles, I still don’t know what it changes, what makes you retreat, what transform what you starting to feel in this, you are already scared of what I maybe could make you feel, I’m not gonna judge you…never, I’m still thinking we are the same thing, we still sharing all what at the beginning makes us speak in the same language, I'll always be your allied and not you enemy, we are the same kind, the same demons in our playground, trying to live in peace and survive to our past, but it’s hard to fight alone with the shadows, try to defeat what you don’t want to be defeated.
From now on I dine alone in hell while it freezes, till you decide to come back and torch the place again like it used to be.
The hunting finally stops, I’m gonna let you recover your breath,
So long my favorite demon, I hope to see you soon, in some point between fantasy and reality I will find you again, fearless and willing to feel.
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